PROJECT: 05-DJC:174.9

This is Deirdre's Breast Cancer Diary. I try to update this blog at least every evening. This is an easy way for me to keep a journal of the experience, and at the same time, I can keep my friends and family up-to-date on what is going on. I find it is not so bad to have cancer, but it is awfully depressing to talk about it. I hope you laugh as you read along. You can find the beginning in February ...in the archives. Thanks again for reading :o)

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

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All of my life I have been yearning to be the center of attention. I have to say I have been enjoying the attention, lately. Is that bad? Sometimes I get caught up in the drama of the cancer: the stage, the sickness... Sometimes it's like I finally have something to talk about - that people are interested in. I have to be careful. I am not usually conscious of how thin a line exists between stage 3 and stage 4 cancer. I have always appreciated shock value - but this is a very cruel game when it comes to cancer. See, it's easier for me than the rest of you- I have the cancer. You don't. I don't have control of it...but you don't either. It is not hard to have cancer....there is nothing to do but exist and let the treatment take over. How hard it must be to stand sentry over me? I don't know what I am trying to say....except thank you...and I am sorry...and thank you.

1 Comments:

  • At 9:13 AM, Anonymous Yolie said…

    Girl, you always have something interesting to say!! I'm always interested anyway...

     

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